im in such a bad mood..it really really sux. parents piss me off. ahh n i dont wanna go ta practice and things seem fucked up rite now. even tho im jus blowin em way outta proportion. nothin new.

orientation was ok. i kno somebody in all my classes n my teachers seem alright. lol i got lost ta most of my classes but got there. jus watch tha 1st day..i aint gonna b able ta make it. bc this time they wont hav tha ftbll players in tha hall ta help ya..heh heh :P

practice frum 3-5:30ish like always. and tha guys hav their ftbll scrimmage same time so we wont b able ta see that but we'll see em afterwards like always.

n tha guy i like..screw that. hes gotta gf.

so we got ta hammond early n ms. p (tha varsity coach) wanted us ta put up a life fitness bulletin board in tha hallway so we worked on that till practice time..and then it was HOT AS HELL outside..omg. but it was a lotta fun, and we scrimmaged at tha end and I GOT A GOAL! haha..and then we went ta tha locker room n got r stuff outta tha locker we share n went out ta wait up for tha guys. so they came out n were playin wit this turtle n bobby scared tha crap outta us wit it. and then tha guys were playin field hockey wit us..well, bobby, ryan, n tim..and then they had ta get their stuff bac on and go out to their last practice so we left.

orientation tomorro mornin, then tha guys ftbll scrimmage if it aint at tha same time as r practice, then practice. b out all day.

i really really like him..

*Beginning*
What time is it // 9:30 am
What is the date // 8.20.03

*Info about you*
Full Name // katie elizabeth skojec
Age // 14
Sex // grl
Birthday // 1.11.89
Where do you live // columbia
What state // md
Zodiac Sign // capricorn
What school do you go to // hhs
What is your mascot // golden bears
What are your school colors // maroon n gold
Nicknames // kt, katesters, t
Where were you born // baltimore md
What are your hobbies // bball, softball, field hockey..damn am i talented :P
Hair color // blonde
Hair length // a lil past my shoulders
Eye color // greenish
Height // 5'5
Have any pets // dog n a cat
What's their names // bailey, tasha
What do you fear most in the world // spiders, heights, n dying
What do you regret the most // too much
If you could do anything without consequences, what would it be // rob a bank
Do you have braces // nope :D
Do you have glasses // i only wear em durin school
Are you good at school // haha

*Favorites*
Car // silver outie
Color // baby blue
Teacher // dunno my teachers yet
Class // uh..probly gonna b health
Day of the week // fridays
Holiday // christmas
Season // summer
Month // june
Sport // all depends wut season it is
Movie // how to lose a guy in 10 days, save tha last dance, a walk to remember..more..
T.V. show // will & grace! haha thats funny shit
Food // soft serve vanilla ice cream
Drink // cherry coke
Band // good charlotte, tha calling
Male singer // uh..jt er joel frum gc
Female singer // xtina
Word // like
Brand of shoes // nike
Radio station // 99.5 or 97.1..erythin glen hollis touches turns ta love btween 7 n midnite! haha kristen
Room in your house // basement n my room
CD // rite now im hooked on tha 'wut a grl wants' soundtrack..me dork :O)
Pizza Toppings// cheese..
State // cali! very cool
City // vegas most def
Letter[s] // k t
Number[s] // 33!
Vacation spot // cancun baby
Cereal // lucky charms! hehe
Ice cream flavor // peanut butter cup
Video game[s] // crash bandicoot..5th level 2nd island!

*Your Friends*
Friends // uuuhhhh too many to list but ill try..rica beebs kristen linds megs zyn neesha shayna jen ali roxie shannon alex emilie hanh britney dani tina amy amanda corey amber jenna sara kristin gayle marian nicole ross bobby wuroh steve-o david richie ryan eric tony kyle mos andrew johnny tj adam..tha ftbll guys..more..sry if i forgot u
Best friend // tha 6 squad! lol
Spend most time with // rica linds kristen n beebs
Who do you have the most inside jokes with // linds lol

*Love Life*
Do you have a crush // yes..
Whats his or her name // im not puttin it in here
How old are they // 14 er 15 
How long have you liked him or her // since yesterday?
If you could kiss anyone in the world, who would it be // orlando bloom..can u say, sexy? haha beebs
If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be // 'him'
Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee // tha dumper, even tho it sux both ways
Do you think there is a person for everyone // yea, but i jus havent found him yet
If yes, do you know who yours is // dunno
Do you believe in love at first sight // no..u hafta kno someone
Have you ever been in love // i dont think so
What do you think love is // a powerful emotion felt for another person, manifesting itself inside deep devotion, need and sexual attraction..lol thanks lindsay
Do you have a bf or gf // nope
How long have you been together // never
What do you like about your crush or bf, gf // hes hot..n nice n funny frum wut i kno of him..i wanna get ta kno him better
When was your first kiss // like 6th grade

*Past*
First grade teacher's name // ms. bailey
Last words you said // 'bye' ta rica
Last song you sang // 'long time coming' oliver james
Last meal you ate // watermelon
What did you hate most about school // tha hw

*Present*
What's in your CD player // 'wut a grl wants' soundtrack
What color sox are you wearing // not wearing any..i jus woke up..
What's under your bed // a big bday card frum rica, beebs, n megs
What's the weather like // looks..grayish
What time did you wake up today // 8:30ish..early..
Did you think it was earlier, later, or on time // earlier

*Future*
Who do you want to marry // ...
Are you going to college // of course
What is your career going to be // 1st grade teacher or physical therapist
How many kids do you want // 2 or 3
Kids names girls // amy, allie
Kids names boys // justin
Where do you want your honeymoon // somewhere warm n sexy..mm..
What kind of car will you have // silver outie

*Have you ever*
Smoked // no
Been Drunk // lol almost
Been high // no
Done drugs // no
Skinny dipped // ive wanted to! but tha opportunity hasnt arose..haha. anybody wanna go wit me? ;)
Stole // yeaa
Stayed up all night on the internet // yea..lol i hav no life
Been in a fist fight // ...
Been in a cat fight // yea
Wanted to kill someone // ohh yes
Fell off a chair // yea lol

*Other*
Do you like your handwriting // yup
If you could be anybody, who would you be and why // i dont kno, im pretty much ok wit who i am..
Which superhero would you be // bubbles from tha powerpuff girls!
Do you have any piercings // yea
Any tattoos // nah
Are you picky // very
What makes you cry // feeling sry for myself, dad, getting hurt both emotionally n physically..lol i sound like a therapist
Do you like cartoons // as told by ginger!  it rocks my socks lol..and lizzie mcguire too, but thats sorta half n half
Do you believe in heaven // yea
Do you believe in God // yea
Do you think there is a hell // not really
Do you believe in the devil // nah
When you get mad, do you swear a lot // i try not to..but yea
Got milk // i hate milk..unless its got chocolate
Do you have a magic 8 ball // yup! haha
Ever worn black nail polish // for halloween once..when i was a cat
Do you have your own tv and vcr // no i wish
Do you believe in fate // to an extent
Do you see dead people // in pictures and in movies..ahh
Are you a good speller // yea
Do you ever steal anything from hotels // who doesnt?
What is your last name backwards // cejoks
What time did you finish // 9:46 am

i cant stop thinking about how upset i was after camp..how i thought of all tha times i didnt want to leave and had to..and i never made tha most out of them. but they were all so short. high school's diff..but im scared ta death im gonna regret some things. like last yr..8th grade sucked. and it coulda been tha best yr of my life if it wasnt for tha shit happenin btween me n tha grls. kristen linds n i even made a pact. haha..yea, it sounds dumb, but we dont wanna hafta regret nothin. friends always n no shit thru school this yr.

theres no future living in tha past..

anyways i went ta bbes wit rica n helped judy set up her classroom..n said hey ta some of tha teachers. ms. cline (my kindergarten teacher) was all like 'erica, u look tha same, but katie, ur face looks so different. its amazing how much a couple months can do to u, but u both look beautiful'. hahaha..wuts so different bout me? same ol', same ol'..lol. yea..n then i had practice where i died but it was still fun. hot as hell. n then we sorta saw tha guys but then they had ta go bac ta their 2nd practice so we talked ta mos then left.

ok..well in 1 of tha other entries i put that 1 of tha guys liked 1 of us grls n that we werent sure bout wut tha grl felt. well, tha guy DOES like tha grl, and tha grl's pretty hooked up over him too. so they're gonna hook up! lol..i think..so dont b sure. no wrong info here.

n i like 1 of tha other guys, n linds is 'in charge' of hookin me up wit him..haha..so we'll see. no names yet for any of this. not till things r sorted out a lil more.

me n dad will never ever get along.

yesterday he called me home frum rica's n sounded PISSED..so i walked home n he was all like 'i got no sleep last nite and had to come home early frum work today bc i didnt feel good n its all ur fault'..n we yelled bac n forth and finally i ran up to my room n stayed there for a while. n then i came downstairs n started screamin at him. i told him he caused me tha shit that happened a couple months ago, that he dont understand me, that i hate him n he ruined my life..n then i ran bac up to my room. n then i finally came downstairs n apologized n he was all pissed bc i said that shit ta him. so i went bac upstairs n stayed there again.

n mom got home n she came up n i talked ta her and, wow, erythings fine. so i was grounded last nite but im out today. im not gonna let dad ruin this. im happy and he isnt gonna ruin that..again.

god damn..i love these days.

so we couldnt play on r field bc they were airrating it er somethin like that..so we had ta run tha track n get timed for a mile, n then we played on tha tennis courts and we learned shit, but it was fun bc we jus relaxed n all in groups..me linds alex kristen jen yae. n then we did sprints, and then finished up n jon came n picked up r stuff so we could walk ta mcdonalds but we had ta wait for tha guys. well their practice didnt end for an hr later so we had ta jus hang round tha school n I FOUND MY TRUCK! ahh! BUT LINDS FUCKING THREW IT IN THA WOODS! haha..we were chasin each other round tha pavement bc shed steal my truck n id steal her shoes n phone..n then i almost broke her cell. oh damn.

n then finally bobby ryan tim bones tony adam..i think thats all tha guys..they came outta tha locker room n we all walked over ta mcdonalds n met up wit mos too n ate there..haha went in tha playplace! YESS BABY! n then there was all this stuff wit 1 of tha guys likin 1 of us grls (i aint puttin who n who in here for privacy reasons..lol) but yea..hopefully theyll hook up. but we dunno if all tha stuff told was tru and its all mixed up.

we're startin afternoon practices now frum 3-6ish. so r tha guys and itd b cool ta see them. i cant wait till school starts. these days hav rocked SO much. life is all worth it now. its all good.

do u ever feel like..u need something so much, but u just cant find it..and u see it other places and just want that..feeling..so much that ud do anything. but there isnt anything u can do..

im not sad, im not upset, im not mad. im not..anything, really. im sorta spaced out. i cant laugh, cant smile, cant cry, cant yell. can barely talk. like tha thoughts r choking me. im off in my own world that i would do anything to get out of, but cant. tha doors already shut and locked. and i dont hav tha key.

but im looking. im still searching. but ive been searching for too long. i see other ppl happy. im happy for them. but im not happy for me. its like somethings wrong wit me. like it isnt rite for me. but i kno its rite for me. and soon i kno i can find somebody..i need somebody.

i jus hope i dont screw things up. ive had bad luck wit ery single 1 of them. all 8. it jus aint rite and ppl r always saying..it doesnt matter now..but it does. im not desperate. but id do anything..anything at all. i wanna hav that feeling. im not too young or not yet ready or any of that shit ive heard. im growing up. im ready for real life. not for hiding bhind my friends n fam. im ready to b me.

but am i good enough?

i ended up goin to tha german festival. no biggie. saw jen there n her fam, n then got food..PIGGED OUT..hot dog, raspberry iced tea, funnel cake, italian ice..n saw a lotta ppl frum dads work who thought i was adorable..mwahaha. and steve n i were dancin to tha german music n made up r own dance that we got tha entire place into. very, very cool.

today..probly hangin wit rica n beebs. cant do much since its my only day off of hockey, coach said jus ta chill. but they got home frum nj last nite n were gone for more than a week so gotta see em. and they start hockey tomorro for glenelg so i aint gonna see em much after today.

god, i cant wait till hammond. - 8 more days -

i really hav no life.

im either playin field hockey or sitting..sitting or playing field hockey. n mix a lil bit of eatin (ok, a lot of eatin) n sleep in there n u got my life. yet i aint unhappy bout it, so is that a good thing? i dunno. im bored ta death. i got too much time ta think.

practice was ok. fun and all..tiring at 1st, since we had ta run a mile round tha track and then do all these drills tha width of tha field..like skipping and hopping on 1 ft. haha..linds n i rocked. n then we did reg drills and it started ta rain which felt good..but then we were all wet n dirty n yucky. worst feeling ever. but tha sun came out n we goofed round n it was all good. n then bobby n greg came n watched us after their practice and kristen n i didnt hav a ride so we gotta ride home wit bobby.

i hafta go to a fuckin GERMAN FESTIVAL tonite. lol i was like wtf? actually, i probly dont gotta go since i cant walk rite now. so ima b round here. call me if u guys r bored. ill b.

had 1st practice..well, tryouts really..frum 9-12. it was hot as hell but fun n i did pretty good..i dont think ill get cut. hung out wit linds kristen alex shayna n yae. did all tha drills wit them..got teamed up wit sophie as a varsity partner who i somewut kno bc shes good friends wit michelle and she was awesome. its cool. we got practice again tomorro mornin frum 8:30-11 instead. hopefully it wont b as hot.

so we saw tha guys at their ftbll tryouts too. they were workin them like shiiit..all tha guys were throwin up. it was nasty. n then when we were takin a water break we saw bobby walk by. yea..hes in tha emergency room rite now. he gashed up his eye. yuck.

so then afterwards me linds kristen alex ryan n jason walked over ta mcdonalds where like ricky dean..more ppl frum ftbll..and blake was there too n was talkin ta us while we ate. ryan bein a total pig..i only had 4 chicken nuggets. and then i got cramps. ah shiiiit. im fine now.

hangin wit linds n kristen this afternoon. life rocks rite now. its jus at 1 of those pts. cept ya kno somethins bout ta come along n ruin it all.

nothin good ever lasts..