im done.

im so freakin busy wit school now that i hav like, no time ta even update this n when i do, i never seem intrested in actually doin it. and tha main reason i had this was ta put my feelins in n hav ppl see it so they could help me n make my life better (even tho it cant get much better) but im still tha same ol' me, it hasnt made any difference.

thanks fer eryone that left me comments - rina, kristen, ross..

<33 always,
katie!

today was ok. i was in a bad mood but i do like b-days better than a-days so it wasnt that bad. oh, yall that go ta hammond should wait till tomorro. tha jv teeeeam is dressin up in pigtails, r uniforms, n mismatched socks fer school, bc of tha scrimmage afterwards. n yall that aint doin nothin after school tomorro, u should come watch n cheer us on. hammond at 5 against arundel.

i really like him..

ok..well it actually wasnt that bad. it was actually pretty fun. haha..surprising. mayb i liked it jus bc it was tha 1st day. that could b it. but anyways..

1st pd - us history wit mr. burke
we talked bout how 'tha wizard of oz' was named after some silver n gold rush thing, like tha yellow brick road n how tha ruby slippers were really silver slippers and we got lockers n all that shit. jus hung round. did nothing really cept get paperwork.

2nd pd - spanish wit senorita williman
it was cool, bc i kno tons of ppl in that class. and then heee walked in. soo hot. but SO freaking dumb. haha it was hilarious. we swear he has add. but he was funny n entertaining and sitting next to ryan didnt make it much better. and then senorita williman played eminem's 'my name is' ta teach us me llamo. she sung 'me llamo senorita williman' ery 5 seconds. it was so stupid.

3rd pd - english wit miss chawkat
shes psycho. i swear. she walks in tha classroom n goes 'i hate kids' and then tells us some story bout her on a plane wit a kid bhind her kicking her seat. she looks like an alien n talks like 1 too. and then she goes 'there r many variations of my name, 1 of my favorites being miss crackhead'. uhh..rite?

4th pd - math wit mrs. clarkin
she talks so fast and nobody understood anything she was doing.

5th pd - biology wit mr. griffin
lol he rocks. i sat wit ryan n zyn and we talked bout sports we played and r lives and hes funny and its gonna b fun. hes laid bac n stuff n doesnt require too much frum us, i can tell. itll b alright.

6th pd - software apps wit mrs. avis
shes frum texas and tha accent can bug ya but hey. lol..theres this 1 kid who could pass as a senior but aint, HUGE kid whos fucking hilarious. he had this 'friend', i forget tha name but its a horrible name..herschel? well he wanted erybody ta kno herschel and wanted him on tha attendance and it was so funny. we do nothing at all in that class. tha teachers gonna break, i kno it.

erythings alright wit me n ryan now. im in a bad mood bc of my parents and not in tha mood ta hav hw on tha fucking 1st day, specially since its math and i dont get a thing. oh well. and im going crazy over 'him'. tha 1 wit a gf, who ive been liking? i still dunno whether er not ta put his name in here. i mean, i dont EXACTLY like him bc i dont kno him. im intrested in him tho.

oh wut tha hell. its tim. but theres also bj but..i dunno. its all too confusing. no pt of liking either, they both got gf's but i wanna get ta kno em both anyway. according ta linds, tim was sittin n talking ta greer thru lunch. ahh i really dont like her. i dont kno her too well but frum wut i do kno and frum wut ive heard i really dont. and it sux.

ill see wut tomorros like.

ktbaby241: hehe..look at richie's profile
ktbaby241: im proud
sweetbaby6743: lol o yea thats something to be proud of
ktbaby241: heh heh
ktbaby241: i gotta new laugh
ktbaby241: as u can see
ktbaby241: sound it out
ktbaby241: it sounds awesome
ktbaby241: heh heh
sweetbaby6743: lol u weirdo
ktbaby241: im proud baby
ktbaby241: DORKS AND WEIRDOS
ktbaby241: they gonna rule tha world somebody
sweetbaby6743: is that really how ur laghing
ktbaby241: IM GONNA RULE THA WORLDDD
sweetbaby6743: noooooooooo
ktbaby241: heh heh
sweetbaby6743: that would be the end of the world
ktbaby241: haha funny
ktbaby241: loserr
ktbaby241: see look -->
ktbaby241: ktbaby241: loserr
l00k itS riChiE: not a loser, im a dork
l00k itS riChiE: and im proud
ktbaby241: hehe
ktbaby241: me too!
ktbaby241: DORKS RULE BABY!
ktbaby241: that is tha origin of richie's profile
sweetbaby6743: lol, well im glad u think dorks rule, cuz in the dictionary a dork is a whales penis. so have fun beeing a dork kt
ktbaby241: ah daaamn
ktbaby241: u got me
ktbaby241: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
sweetbaby6743: wut
ktbaby241: I LOVE UR PROFILE!
sweetbaby6743: lol i just changed it cuz u called me a loser
ktbaby241: (notice tha origin of tha statement, stating 'double l..thats me', is also frum a human species by tha significant name of katie)
ktbaby241: heh heh
ktbaby241: try tha laugh now
ktbaby241: heh heh
sweetbaby6743: lol u've gone insane
ktbaby241: lol i kno
ktbaby241: im surprised it took ya this long to notice
ktbaby241: ah damn
sweetbaby6743: lol hahahaha  u can be double D for dork but lol its like a bra size
ktbaby241: haha NO
ktbaby241: yea, like ima ever b a double d
sweetbaby6743: lol
ktbaby241: heh heh
ktbaby241: u still havent tried tha laugh hun
ktbaby241: try it now
ktbaby241: heh heh
sweetbaby6743: heh heh lol
ktbaby241: yesss
ktbaby241: nicely done sherlock
sweetbaby6743: thanks ummm wuts the guys name
sweetbaby6743: wallace
sweetbaby6743: william
sweetbaby6743: winfry
ktbaby241: WATSON
ktbaby241: oh wow
sweetbaby6743: lol oooohh yea
ktbaby241: tha best author of all time wrote about sherlock holmes and watson
ktbaby241: and u dont even kno bout it
sweetbaby6743: i do
ktbaby241: heh heh..good..bc i dont
sweetbaby6743: i knew is started wit a W
ktbaby241: good job
sweetbaby6743: lol thanks
ktbaby241: no problemo
ktbaby241: gotta go..la cena is ready
ktbaby241: ok..ur 1st spanish lesson
ktbaby241: wutchu think la cena is?
sweetbaby6743: is that dinner
ktbaby241: good job
sweetbaby6743: yay

can u say, sexy? lmao..beebs :P im alright. ahh..last day of summer. its so nice outside too but ima b doin laundry n supply shoppin. ah damn. im xcited tho, in some way. we'll see wut its like tomorro. it aint gonna b that bad.

fuck it all..i cant take this shit. ive been upset n feel like erythings fucked up so ezily and i dont even get y. i dont hav any reason to b upset. do i?

rite..and i got these 'wise' words frum somebody's profile. i wonder who its directed towards. rite..its pretty damn obvious.

oh well...........

she talks about how she needs someone that will be there for her and someone that she can talk to so she thinks that any guy that comes into her life is that one but she doesnt really know that that certain guy has been in front of her eyes this whole time........

i try to help but i do it reluctantly i hold it in myself so i make sure i dont say anything that would hurt her i want to tell her how she doesnt really know what she wants but i cant that would hurt her too much....

shes confused about life but i can make it right but she doesnt seem to notice that either..

well, this mornin..

we got to tha school by 7:45ish n got ready for play day. got on tha bus n left and then we got there n watched a lil of tha varsity n then we played south carroll n tied them 0-0. and then we took a 30 min break n then played glenelg, who has like tha best field hockey program round, n they beat us 1-0. and then we watched tha rest of varsity's game n hung out n then got bac on tha bus n left. and we got bac to tha school n lisa showed me n linds where r classes were 1 more time before school starts.

1 more day of summer :(

and then i went over ta kristens wit linds n we all went to dean's, where him n bobby were n we hung out n played bball and then pat n zack showed up, n then bj, n then david wuroh n ricky. and we all went in tha pool n switched bac n forth btween that n tha hot tub. and they were havin dunkin contests n shit..and then we left n went bac ta kristens n now im home. going to beebs's tonite ta chill wit her n rica.

im so dead.

thinking: bout 'him'..about how much fun tomorro is gonna b
wearing: t-shirt n shorts
hair is: dripping..got outta tha shower a few min ago
wanting: ppl ta come to r games tomorro, n school ta start later
craving: dinner
seeing: tha comp
hearing: tha keyboard n music
smelling: shampoo
feeling: horrible..and tha worst part is, i dont really hav a reason to
having: uhh
fearing: school? not really. im not really fearing anything i dont think..
regreting: nothin really, which is nice
wondering: wut this yr is gonna b like..and hoping itll jus b better than last yr
caring: bout my friends, my fam..erybody
believing: hmm
talking to: im not in tha mood ta talk to nobody rite now
dancing: to nothing..im too tired
singing: song im listenin ta..'greatest story ever told' oliver james
aching: my foot..frum kickin bobby in tha shin when i was barefoot
loving: my grls n erybody that hav helped me thru shit and r always here for me..i love u guys ta death
liking: 'him'..but is there really a pt to?
have faith in: nothing rite now
have trust in: my friends..my team..we gonna rock tomorro grliees
fighting: nobody i dont think
confusing: no1 rite now
being confused by: nobody really
yelling at: i dont hav enough energy ta yell
being yelled at: by nobody..there aint nobody here
expecting: nothing
hoping: school will b ok..tomorro will b fun..n ill get ta see tha guys
wishing: things will work out wit 'him'
giving: nothing
receiving: i dont need anything
cleaning: nothing..aint cleaning till sunday
writing: nothin
scratching: lol nothing
dreaming: bout 'him'
missing: umm..nobody
are you crying: no
are you laughing: no
are you smiling: no
are you suceeding: wuts there ta succeed in? i did good at practice today..2 goals in tha scrimmage
have you finished all your homework: none
your mood is: all mixed up
the time is: 6:58 pm 

im alright.

me n kristen were talkin last nite, n then me n linds. these days hav put us in such a good mood. hangin wit tha hockey team n then wit tha ftbll team. its like, this good feeling. n..lol..it really sounds stupid but its a good thing. n we're gonna b doin this for a while. it aint somethin thats like a week that i wouldnt hav time ta make tha most outta. its all ok.

i found out stuff last nite. im not puttin it in here. but it cheered me up like 10x. n he aint lyin either..which is even better.

practice today. we get uniforms since tomorros play day. games at 9:30 n 10:30 if u guys wanna come cheer us on! yea baby :D

im in such a bad mood.

practice sucked..none of us felt good n tha heat was unbearable n we couldnt run er do anything. luckily they stopped early n did tha cuts and me n my grls made tha team. congrats u guys..this seasons gonna rock.

n then we were waitin up for tha guys ta hang wit them again which usually cheers me up bc its either hilarious or jus a good time n they all left cept bobby, who left mainly rite after he came out tha door so we were loners n waited for kristens mom ta pick us up n now im here..and i dunno wut ima go tonite. my parents r in va fer some college dinner reuniting thing.

another broken heart again today..